I admit I have an evil heart.I admit I do have the thought of breaking you up with your family, so just that I am able to be with you.But, did I really go all out, do every possible thing to do the above?I cry alot. Far too much for the past year and counting. All for you. I did not do it with the purpose of pressurizing you. I did it solely because I want to realise all the hurt in me. I want you to know that I am in pain, that how much you are loved. But, I guess you interpretted it the wrong way. A wrong message was sent to you.I feel that a part of me has already accepted the fact. When you leave, sooner or later, I would believe I am able to stand on my two feet again, supporting myself, living life happily once again. But for now, all I want is for you to feel loved. To spend every possible moment with you happily, to allow you to have something to smile over next time when you think of your past. Again, you have got the wrong message from my actions.You got yourself real drunk today. First time ever. I know you are under alot of pressure. From both with regards to your personal and work life. But, you never breathe a word at all to me. Do you really think that keeping your sorrows all to yourself is the best? What happened to you today is a result of you having too much within yourself to bear already. Thus, you exploded by drowning yourself in alcohol.Am so worried about you now. Unable to sleep. Waiting for your call to tell me you are alright. Hoping that you can grant me my wish of meeting tomorrow morning. But, meeting you to just sit beside you, give you my shoulder to lean on, ears to listen to you and feel the love I have for you.Is it possible?
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
2:10 AM